Feels like a lie.

Why does it seem every time he says "you're beautiful" it seems like a mean and viscous lie. Is it a lie or is it that I'm too fucked up to realize the truth. What is real? Why is this seem so real but I feel so down and can't believe it? Why does this cruel world have to mess with me to this existent.

Back again

I know it has been forever since I posted anything. A lot has been going on but to let anyone who reads this know life isn't all fun and games I have a lot to do before I can really post more like I use to. Take care to all may your eyes open to the real world we live in.

Change

I have changed since the last time I was here. The sweet cuteness is out the door and the real me will shine right on through. I have a front for people who don't know me or for my family. No one but me seen who I really am. Most will never know but here I come. better be prepared because it will not be pretty.

Long time

It has been a long time since I had posted anything.   I moved out of my parent's place and now living with my boyfriend we had gotten an apartment and we love it here and able to see each other all the time. I have an ok job.  Life is going pretty good I miss my family but I do see them once in a while. But I live an hour away from them so it is harder to go and visit.
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