Feels like a lie.

Why does it seem every time he says "you're beautiful" it seems like a mean and viscous lie. Is it a lie or is it that I'm too fucked up to realize the truth. What is real? Why is this seem so real but I feel so down and can't believe it? Why does this cruel world have to mess with me to this existent.

Back again

I know it has been forever since I posted anything. A lot has been going on but to let anyone who reads this know life isn't all fun and games I have a lot to do before I can really post more like I use to. Take care to all may your eyes open to the real world we live in.